Was lazing in bed this morning, and letting my mind wonder. Somehow, the storyline of What’s your number came to my mind.
The movie is about a girl looking for true love as her bio-clock starts ticking, and she realises the number of partners she had was above the national average. The story continues as she tracks down her ex-lovers, so that she would not exceed the national average and escape the fate of being alone for the rest of her life. The plot is well, rather far-fetched for reality, but what left a deep impression in my mind is how the female lead successfully portrayed a character who often compromises and change herself to impress someone or to live up to others’ expectation. And when not being yourself bags you a rich man and envy from everyone around you, is losing yourself worth it all?
The movie ended of course with the female lead making the right choices and choosing being herself and eventually finding the love of her life. So I wondered how many times when I am making choices, I did it because of what I wanted, and not the expectations of others. And when I had to make compromise, can I continue to live with it and were they worth it?
At the end of the day, I am satisfied with my current state. Hoping things will be better and brighter in certain aspects, but some decisions and choices might have to be changed… I am not in a hurry though since the current state is still bearable.
An unexpected ‘spring-cleaning’ of my state of mind. 
